As community mental health nurses the suicide of one of our clients is our biggest fear. However, I was not provided with any education on suicide in my nurse training and continuing professional development training on suicide is very scarce. As a result I have been running scared for the last twenty years desperately hoping that my practice would prevent my clients from taking their lives. This is not a healthy way to lead your working life. Through attending the Suicide conference I discovered a whole new world of training, research findings and hope. I felt privileged to hear people’s experiences and stories as well as leaving with a better understanding of the area of suicide.